An Intro

First off I know the title of my blog says gaming, but honestly I've had this blog for a long time and have yet to actually make a single post on gaming, instead I've decided to make this my own personal blog so I can vent out all my problems and issues without getting anyone involved because I know some of what I might say would just wreck any form of friendship I have with people both in real life and on the internet. So with that in mind I'll get started.

First off why is it so hard to find a job here. I know there is a recession going on but it's supposedly got better (though not by much, at least things are better than they were back then). It drives me nuts that 95% of people I know can find jobs yet I struggle so much to find one. What are they doing that I'm not...or more likely what do they have that I don't...well honestly I don't know but I can think of one thing they don't have that I think is causing me to not get a job...Asperger Syndrome.

Crazy as this sounds I have a feeling me having that is casuing employers to not even consider me, it might even explain as to why Tesco kicked me out cause no one there knew anything about AS and I bet they still don't to this day.

It really sucks to not have a job as it's one of the things I need to have in order to have a normal life and to be able to get a girlfriend. I mean think about it, with a job I can get more money that I get right now and have enough to move into (or share) a place away from my parents. Cause right now still living with my parents and not having a job is not doing me any favours. Some people tell me that it really does not matter but I call bullshit on that cause girls these days will never want to be with someone without a job or their own place...maybe their own place but no job but that's not always possible. I mean a girl will see a guy without a job and their own place as someone who can't even look after themselves and think of them at pathetic...and that's how I feel, just pathetic that at 27 years old I am still nowhere near having a normal adult life. With a girlfriend or wife, having a full time 9-5 job to support me and her, etc.

It also does not help that girls don't even look for personality, then again I've always felt personality is overrated. Girls only want guys who not only have jobs and/or live on their own but have talents and are witty and can do amazing things...which I lack, making me more useless than I already am.

The only thing keeping me going in this life is that faint hope that one day things will change for the better for me and I'll finally be out of this slump I've been in for so long (minus the time I was working for Tesco, at least then I felt I had a chance to improve things before I had my job taken away from me) but the longer this goes on, the fainter that hope gets. And I don't know how long I can go on like this. The only way at this point I'll ever acomplish what I need is a miricle. Hard work is overrated since it gets me nowhere so more power to me on that.

There is so much more but I've only just started on this, there is so much bothering me in my life I could be here forever. But right now I'll just take it one blogpost at a time

Welcome to my blog

Hello there gamers and non-gamers alike. My name is Grant McLellan but I go by the name Invisible Crane and this is my blog about gaming...and maybe some other sutff but mainly gaming.

To make a long story short I hope I can achieve a lot with this, maybe get some connections, become more involved with the industry...maybe even go to E3 which is a major achievement for a gamer?...who knows.

But anyway right now I just want to get this introduction out of the way so I can move on to the good stuff. So with that let's get this blog going!